That I feel inside, I'm tired of all the lies...
"Youth of the Nation" by Payable On Death
Last day of the rest of my life
I wish I would've known
Cause I didn't kiss my mama goodbye
I didn't tell her that I loved her and how much I care
Or thank my pops for all the talks
And all the wisdom he shared
Unaware, I just did what I always do
Everyday, the same routine
Before I skate off to school
But who knew that this day wasn't like the rest
Instead of taking a test
I took two to the chest
Call me blind, but I didn't see it coming
Everybody was running
But I couldn't hear nothing
Except gun blasts, it happened so fast
I don't really know this kid
Even though I sit by him in class
Maybe this kid was reaching out for love
Or maybe for a moment
He forgot who he was
Or maybe this kid just wanted to be hugged
Whatever it was
I know it's because
[chorus:]
We are, We are, the youth of the nation
Little Suzy, she was only twelve
She was given the world
With every chance to excel
Hang with the boys and hear the stories they tell
She might act kind of proud
But no respect for herself
She finds love in all the wrong places
The same situations
Just different faces
Changed up her pace since her daddy left her
Too bad he never told her
She deserved much better
Johnny boy always played the fool
He broke all the rules
So you would think he was cool
He was never really one of the guys
No matter how hard he tried
Often thought of suicide
It's kind of hard when you ain't got no friends
He put his life to an end
They might remember him then
You cross the line and there's no turning back
Told the world how he felt
With the sound of a gat
[chorus]
Who's to blame for the lives that tragedies claim
No matter what you say
It don't take away the pain
That I feel inside, I'm tired of all the lies
Don't nobody know why
It's the blind leading the blind
I guess that's the way the story goes
Will it ever make sense
Somebody's got to know
There's got to be more to life than this
There's got to be more to everything
I thought exists
[chorus]
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Am in a bad mood now, super pissed irritated and so on. If you seen me on sunday and think I was bad, well this is worst. I think I just need a good nights sleep to clear my head. Been busy rebutting fanboy idiots on forums to getting a full work out during my IPT. And up till now I still wonder why the heck I push myself so hard.
Arrgghhhh....
BTW the song is something that will never leave me. Meaningful words in a general sense.(Yes the band is christian but its talking about something everyone can relate to. So to those idiots going arond condemning the song becos its christian, you only prove to the rest of the world how shallow you are). I mean just take a look around you, along orchard road, in school and so on. How many times do you see someone who looks ok but deep down he/she is not. Do you even care that they are hurting? Or how about the people around you who have always been there for you, when was the last time you were there for them?
The song is was influenced in part by the school shootings at Santana High School, Columbine High School and Granite Hills High School. Now before you go blaming the whole freedom thingy in USA, just think, those kids might have been nice people until someone or something pushed them to the edge. Maybe they got sick and tired of people around them who were so fake and all that?
Now bring yourself back to sunny little singapore. Here life is so fast paced and grades and looks and face are so important. While there are no shootings cos we cant own guns except in the army until we ord, society is still pretty much screwed up.
I mean how many times have you heard the story where guy/girl leaves bf/gf for another and than gets dump and acts all poor thing when we all know she/he deserves it. Or how about girl/boy with bright future but screws up and everything goes down the drain. Most if not all of the time its becos people aroud them dun care dun bother dun give a damn. Or people who did gave up trying cos they kept giving and giving.
Bottom line is please think of others as well. If not the next time something happens to you and no one is there for you, dun go crying. You deserve it right in the face.
Just like a certian idiot female whose future husband ill treated a dog. If he can tie the dog up and beat it, what makes you think he wun ill treat u and abuse you. And than you will go crying and use the women's charter and whatever shit rights. Let me know if it happens next time and I will dedicate a while blog post to laugh at you.
On a side note, maybe its time to give up being nice and trying... I know Kenneth will always be Kenneth and still just bite it and live with it and still be nice but maybe I shld start trying for a change...
KK enough liaos better sleep.
Nites all.
Kenneth.
