all I want to do... Is be more like me and be less like you...
"Numb" by Linkin Park
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Ok its another Linkin Park video here. I told myself not to post two videos from the same artist or group one after another but there is something about this song and video that hit me.
Anyway FYI I am into watching music videos now thus the sudden influx of youtube videos. Some I watch on youtube, some I got the videos like Ayumi's ones which are on the DVD which came with the cd. Thanks to Joshua and Kathleen for that Christmas present.
Back to the video, I think it reminds me of many of us growing up here in SG. Where the whole society is moulded to a template. Complete your primary and secondary education, move on to tertiary education, get your paper, go out to work, get attached, get married, have kids and make sure your kids follow the same process. Yup thats what is expected here. Than there is the usual fields of studies to go into, everything is somehow preplanned for you and you dun have a choice. Take myself for example, I am doing a computer science degree, the "right" or "correct" route would be to be a programmer than team leader and so on. Or system analyst also can. Now if I said I wanted to make the first Mac Virus(Yes I am dead serious about it. Now its just hogging resources... but later on... :D) and work for Microsoft in producing stuff to shoot the mac down like they are shooting the pc with their ads, how many people will encourage me? I think its more like telling me its a stupid idea and be realistic with life.
Maybe I belong to the non old school group of thinking. I mean I have seen friends who study Law in poly and in the end you hear his voice on air every morning(and doing a good job too), fellow IT students back in poly not because they want to but because they were told to do so. Now one is a youth worker planning to get his degree in another field and the other doing camps and getting this education paid so he can do his dip and move on to his degree. Or another friend I know who is in a local uni learning how to draw instead of working away on the pc(Hey I saw the picture and it looks good). Interesting right?
Well enough pouring out of my thoughts here, gonna get some sleep as tomorrow got project meeting in school. The lecturer finally gave us sample reports to make our life better. Nites world and may tmr be a better day.
cheers,
Kenneth.
